When you are in love with a married man…

13th Feb. 2011
When you are in love with a married man…
Telling you being in love with a married man is a bad idea is like telling a skydiver how dangerous the activity is or a smoker how harmful smoking is.
Initially I used to think that you need to be really desperate or lonely or other miserable things to be involved with a married guy and If you are falling for a married guy you need to be smacked hard on your face till you are in your senses. it not just ruins your life but sometimes when children come into the picture it’s a sheer mess for all the people involved.
I met a guy two years back through a common friend, I was pretty impressed by him and his intelligence etc.etc.etc. One day two years later I hear he wants to work with me and our common friend since we were in our senior year of our college and were looking for a job. He said after our first meeting with him that we needed a lot of serious grooming before we ventured out into the big bad world. He would flirt all the time with me and my friend but it was all in good jest.
We met a lot of times after that for work related meetings (which later I found out was just an excuse to see me) and I found myself being really really attracted to him. I used to think it was just a girly crush on an older man (yeah guys I was 20 and he 40) until one day we had to meet alone at a restaurant and we got talking. I was talking non-stop and he was listening. Earlier our conversations were strictly work related but that day it was different. I spoke to him like I never spoke to anyone. I was all the more attracted to him but I controlled my feelings.
But apparently my feelings were written all over my face and the intensity and the chemistry became so unbearable, I had to leave before anything stupid happened. I was sprinting across the road to avoid him and got into a rick.
He knew I was attracted to him, he knew I wanted him to hold me and kiss me but that would have been wrong…all wrong.
Forbidden love…